lay your armor down ( a story of surrender)

I see you in a forest. I see your armor and your wounds. I can see your stiches and those wounds that have already been healed. I can see your scars. A funny thing is happening there is light coming from your wounds. you are resting under a tree. you havent taken your armor off in years. your armor is so used to being on you that you have marks when you remove it. This is the first time in a decade that you have laid your armor down. there is an excitement in your heart and hope in your voice. It is strong like the many depths of thunder. there is a gentlness in your movement as if you are handling something so delicate and precious. you have reached out in love and have not been scared. you trust and have laid your armor down and you whisper to me in the stillness of your heart, love of my life i have had to wear this armor for a decade now and this is the only time i can lay my armor down. i lay down my armor at my feet because here right now is the time and it is for you and it is so natural.
the road is now before you and you can see the dim light begin to shine like the morning sunrise.
upon seeing you lay down your armor i put down my bow and arrow and i take off my sheild. we sit under the tree that shadows us from getting burned and we breathe each other in. you wisper in my ear about the depths of your love for me and i shutter inside as i have so many times before.
And too our surprise we have twins. one boy joseph and one girl lillian. they run to us and they are playing with their swords and shelids. they haven't reached four yet. lillian runs up your large arms and she kisses you and whispers in your ear that she will never love another as she loves you and joseph puts on your sheild and says he wants to be a warrior like you someday.
in that moment you are overjoyed. all that you have wanted has come into it's fruition. your armor is down and your baby girl is there with you. And you have created your lillian and she is just as you saw in the dream of your heart and your son joseph is more than you ever expected. it is as if you saw clearly the desires of your heart come to life. the desires you had abandoned.
you fall asleep under your tree holding me and your twins. you are so strong and your embrace holds all three with no effort at all. It was as if you were created to hold all three of us at once.

Valentine's Day Runway Show

For Valentine's Day 2010 i am desgining a collection for a runway show here in the bean town with a friend and collegue from my day's in fashion. All the proceeds when purchasing the pieces from the collection will go to a Rape Crisis Center in Boston, MA. The idea of the night is to take back the soft gentle feminity that is ours as females, that is God-given and designed and unique. The show is about being stronger and taking back the beauty that is female. The trend will be the Romantic trend, shown on Valentine's day... the soft romantic trend with edge is going to be one of the hottest trends for the spring 2010. I will post further about logisitcs. As we sit right now, my collection will be available in stores in Wakefield and Cambridge and can be purchased on Valentine's night. Everyone is romantically lovable. My collection is inspired by that one solid passion and the southern coast of Italy. Please come support me and the Women that have been wounded by Rape.

my bucket list for 2010

* this past year, i had a year that was enamored in suffering, loss and grief. it was as if everywhere i turned things were taken from me... but i endured.*

so this spun my 2010 bucket list*

Miss Stina's 2010 Bucket List*

*love fiercely in all things, neighbors, familia,friends, handsome gentleman.*laugh out loud daily*get a couture chanel dress*SKYDIVE*get eli a brother*re-do my cucina*take a vacation on my born day to turks and caicos* get a new job*stop losing ipods* start making shoes (taken advantage of the sicilian neighbor who knows how)*creatively dive into the creative direction of the cupcake factory * take over the world one cupcake at a time* take my mom to my Fashion show on feb14th* design*create*love*dance* have breakfast at tiffany's* learn the piano* work on my italian to become fluent* learn how to read mandarian chinese and have basic conversations* take a class for fun* buy a Vespa for the summer/spring*

*daily be grateful for the gorgeousness that is life* build a fourth shoe closet*